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Help! Where is my referee uniform???? Honestly, this is every minute of every day in my house with eight kids!! OK, I'll admit it. There are the sweet moments of love and compassion to balance these never-ending stressful encounters, but for some reason, these unloving loud outbursts are what I tend to remember. I'm to the point where I hold up my hand and say, 'I'm not the complaint department, and I don't like how black and white stripes look on me, so go work it out. If you can't, I'll help you.' And I leave it to them. And I have a feeling there are many more jungle outbursts to be handled. Help me!"
Look at a quote from a mom on her blog:
"This is a sad situation. We have 9 kids and NONE of this happens in our home. our kids are close to your kids in age, 10, 8,6, 4 and 1. I would NEVER EVER EVER let all that tattling and needing a ref happen. No hitting and no telling on each other. To me this is a cry for help."
That's a miracle. 9 kids and all of them always loving and sweet to each other. Sure.
That's why I never went to playgroups much. So many moms are so quick to judge others, yes I am imperfect and yes my child makes me want to pull my hair out sometimes. My child is a CHILD. He will act out, kids do that. I guess his cries when he throws toys around because I say no is a "cry for help." Funny stuff. I cry, yell and have even contemplated jumping out of a window. Okay no, I wouldn't jump but it's that feeling of needing to escape every once in a while that gets me.
Let's see in all of the 2 1/2 years my son has been in this world I have gone out as many times as I can count on one hand. Let's not forget no drinking or sushi for the 9 months before he was born. Here I am again 'sushi-less'. My eyes burn when they are open and because he is so up and down with his spastic 2 year old emotions I am too. I don't think I have slept a full nights sleep since a surgery I had last year. My kid wakes up most nights for water or etc and usually if I don't change his night pull-ups at least once he will leak. He's a total pisser, always has been. Anyways back to surgery; I like going in for surgery sometimes, they give me medication to make me feel good after and serve me breakfast in bed. When can I have the next one? Oh ya, when I get my next c-section and I am going to milk my recovery time for all it's worth this time.
There is no more important job to me than molding a young being. I love my son more than I could ever describe and my heart will surely grow bigger with two. Does this mean it's taboo for me or any mom to say how much they hated their day sometimes? I'm not always a beaming ray of sunshine. Sometimes I am rainy, stormy, gray and will electrocute anything that isn't grounded.
So Kate, you can't dance but I don't blame you for being tired. You do have that right even if you get some help with all your money. Emotionally speaking, those are your kids and nothing can affect a woman more than when one (or eight) is crying.
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